back on track.

so i took a couple days off…and no it didn’t kill me.

i don’t know how people abandon their healthy lifestyles though.  i went to the hotel gym both sat and sunday and did some sort of a work out…granted it was a lot less than my regular regimine, it was something!  but after letting lose on my eating reigns for a couple days, holy hell, i’m so glad to have eaten tons of greens and chicken for lunch today!  and wouldn’t mind not havving a drink for a while.  (and i didn’t drink much!).  Funny how that happens!

i had an interview yesterday, that i’m keeping underwraps for the most part, so shhh…don’t tell anyone.  i’ve always had a conundrum of telling people about jobs i’m interviewing for.  my college roommate my freshman year used to tell me that i needed to tell people my goals and share my dreams…where as i think that’s awesome, and she went on to lead a fairly successful career as professional golfer and lawyer (go girl!), i’ve often encountered naysayers and people genuinely not interested.  so i tend to try and keep things quiet until they are a sure thing.  so hopefully in a few days, or a week. or two…i’ll have some awesome news to share with you guys!  until themn, it’s all about the power of positive thinking.  it’s worked well in my life before, it’s time to really push this one into happening!!!

anyway.

i know something is out there for me that is exactly where i belong. and i know it will come together when it is meant to.  it’s been a really rough road for me.  i’ve never not been successful.  i’ve learned to disengage a bit.  if you know anything about me, you know i’m passionate (or as my close family and friends would tell you, OBSESSIVE!).  i get really excited about things i believe in and that’s what makes me successful.  i eat, sleep, dream, about things i enjoy/want to accomplish/etc.  (well…i guess that’s a bit obvious if you follow my blog or  twitter feed).  for the most part, it’s actually one of my favorite things about me.  but lately, with certain things, it’s become a bit of my achilles heel.  caring so much and putting so much of myself into something to be let down is pretty painful.  it happened with my last job, and to this day it literally still haunts me (yes, weekly i have a nightmare of it all! no joke…i know, it’s pathetic, but true).  it’s so draining to put all of yourself into something to not get it.  so i’m learning to ease up a little…or just not allowing myself to get engaged with things AS MUCH as i used to.  working on controlling the controllables and letting fate take care of what is meant to be.  this is actually a huge part of my health and fitness too…trying not to obsess and beat myself up if i slip here and there.  like i posted on twitter this morning, exercise is a reward, not a punishment because of what you ate!!!

i know i’m destined for something extraordinary.  i know there is more to my life.  and if i don’t find it, i’ll make it.  i know i’m coming out of the tail end of this rough patch!

so enough of my ramblings for today.

go out there and do good!

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push through the negatives…

it was a rough week for me, hence the sparsity of words in this blog, i do apologize for that as my goal is to post something positive here at least once a day.  somedays it’s hard to wipe away all the other stuff to get into the positive…but this will be a great exercise on me in regards to mental discipline!

i’ve been struggling a bit with my self image, unfortunately on the INSIDE and OUT.  i’m my biggest critic and i’ve been insanely critical and judgemental this week and it’s torn me down a bit.

so i’m ready to end that phase of negative self talk and be a stronger version of myself.

i started this weekend with 2 hours in the gym, which always makes me feel strong and have a lovely weekend ahead with my mom and sister, two sassy, strong women that know how to have fun!

So i wanted to share some quotes that helped me get back on track and hopefully can bring something to you too!  Enjoy! xxx

One of the most courageous things you can do is identify yourself, know who you are, what you believe inand where you want to go. * Sheila Murray Bethel

*** i need this one DAILY!!!*** —> The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself. – Anna Quindlen.

Love is what we were born with. Fear is what we learned here. * Marianne Williamson

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. “I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.” You must do the thing you think you cannot do. * Eleanor Roosevelt

* LOVE this next one —> I’m not afraid of storms, for I’m learning to sail my ship.  * Louisa May Alcott

You move totally away from reality when you believe that there is a legitimate reason to suffer. * Byron Katie

The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen nor touched but are felt in the heart. * Helen Keller

I am willing to put myself through anything, temporary pain or discomfort means nothing to me as long as I can see that the experience will take me to a new level. I am interested in the unknown, and the only path to the unknown is through breaking barriers, an often painful process. * Diana Nyad

The most courageous act is still to think for yourself. Aloud.  * Coco Chanel  (<—-THIS is and has always been one of my favorite quotes, probably because i’m not known for keeping my voice quiet!)

Stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone ought to be. * Elizabeth Gilbert

And the trouble is, if you don’t risk anything, you risk more. * Erica Jong

Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with their weaknesses. * Madame Marie du Deffand